Welcome to Origin Chaos
Bringing Order to Chaos, Together.
Before I begin with an introduction to this channel, I’d like to make a few opening remarks. The original introduction for this channel was written over 1 month ago (screenshot below). You will find it under the header “What is Origin Chaos Pt. 1”. The reason it has not been omitted from this page is because the contrast between Pt 1. and Pt 2., which was written today, March 7th, is the most honest and accurate representation of the profundity that has occurred in my life these last few months.
It is proof that in just a few weeks, someone who is completely and utterly lost can find direction, simply by questioning the world around them, and by embarking on a relentless pursuit of truth, while consistently challenging the mind and body through various tests of discipline.
For a long time, I hesitated to launch Origin Chaos because I wasn’t sure what direction to take it. That was my mistake. Direction isn’t something you wait for—it’s something you forge. Through acts of discipline, a revival of faith, and relentless deliberation, I now believe that it is the pursuit itself that will lead us to salvation.
What is Origin Chaos? Pt. 1
At its core, Origin Chaos is where I organize my thoughts on the state of Western society, which I believe is suffering from existential confusion. In the process of organizing these thoughts, I will produce book syntheses, thought experiments, and short stories—all of which will take the form of essays, podcasts, and emails.
Much of what I write will be inspired by history’s greatest psychologists and philosophers, as well as classic literature and scripture.
As I explore the struggles of our generation and the search for solutions, I remain aware of my biases. Most, if not all, of my content will be shaped by personal experience—because that’s all I have.
I am not a clinical practitioner. I am also, by all definitions, still young—and therefore, naïve. In this regard, time is not on my side. I am at the beginning of my philosophical exploration. But I will do my best to think critically, challenge my own assumptions, and maintain objectivity—so that this content is not just a reinforcement of my past beliefs, but a vehicle for both my own growth and yours.
It is my hope that you find the essays helpful, the podcasts insightful, and the emails thought-provoking.
But more than that—I hope they help you bring order to the chaos in your own life.
Why Origin Chaos?
Because I need it.
Origin Chaos exists because my existential curiosity demanded it.
Why am I here?
What is the point of all of this?
Why write this at all?
These are the questions from which Origin Chaos was born. I could no longer live passively, drifting through life without answers to my most simple—yet most profound—questions.
This is not just a project. It is the battleground of my struggle with truth and temptation, good and evil.
I am still in the process of structuring my beliefs, but I can share one thing with certainty:
The purpose of mankind is to push human evolution in a positive direction.
And of course, the next question arises:
What is a “positive direction”?
This is the foundation on which I will build.
That’s as far as I’ve gotten.
Origin Chaos Pt. 2, The Official Start
The idea for Origin Chaos was born out of selfish necessity—an attempt to organize my own worldview and hierarchy of beliefs.
At first, I was driven by my own survival—motivated by the egotistical urges of flesh and blood. I wanted to write for fame, to escape the obligations of a professional life, so I could focus solely on writing—the one thing I have always truly loved.
But in truth, I loved writing not for its own sake, but for what it symbolized—wisdom and status. To see my name among the great philosophers would have been a dream. To make millions from a New York Times Best-Seller would have been "enough."
But now, none of that matters.
Origin Chaos has been reborn. It is no longer something I need. It is something that has been given to me.
This desire to write and think deeply—this need to search for truth—is not something I created or achieved. It has been placed in me, into this flesh and blood, as a responsibility, not as a tool for personal gain.
It is no longer fame or fortune that drives me.
I have realized how empty the material world is—how unsubstantial all of that truly is.
All that matters now is the revelation of truth—to as many people as possible.
Because what we believe shapes how we see the world, and how we see the world determines how we live.
Right now, the worldview of the masses is at the mercy of evil and ignorance.
Together, we must begin to introduce goodness back into the world. But to do that, we must first understand where chaos comes from.
And so, Origin Chaos was born.
The Path Forward
To pursue this mission, I have set a multi-disciplinary curriculum that I will follow—one that draws from the greatest foundational works in Philosophy, Psychology, Theology, History, and Politics.
To name just a few:
The Republic (Plato)
Summa Theologica (Aquinas)
The Bible
Histories (Herodotus)
Metaphysics (Aristotle)
By studying these, I hope to build a worldview rooted in truth—one that anyone living today can adopt without hesitation.
But before we get there, we must first understand the nature of truth, and the world around us. So we pause and ask: